EMPTY VOID

Feeling normal and actually being normal are two different things. So you are enjoying a nice after lunch break and wondering how sweet life has been to you so far. Not many get to enjoy the expensive lunch you just buy on a daily. Of course you feel the perfection of self-actualisation, besides you are way much richer than a good number of your own age mates. Complacency is what you may call it, but who cares.  Young lad at your age, enjoying the brisk of business success, probably having the best chain of buddies to hang around with and of course good shape to enjoy every force of laughter to encounter. For a moment, life seems a perfectly fit puzzle.

                And then your thoughtful mind peers into a future… It’s dark and void. Your mind grips a fear that sends chills down your spine, everything feels so dark. Oh so you thought. A deem light of glistening eyes stare coldly into your direction… for a second, you realise you are not alone. Even then, your conscience still tells you,” You are not in the right company”.

                Driven by instinct you struggle to your numb feet, to run nowhere. As you run, you feel every bit of you being left back where you came from. The dark is eating you up… With every breath, every pump, every muscle, every thought, every sweat, you try to fight your way but, alas, the monster has already griped you and is swallowing every inch of your mind, heart and life… For a moment, you are dead. Oh! My God, what is this?

                The rage builds up, the mind cracks up; you can hear every tap of your heart beat; your breath sinks into a solemn silence full of bitter venom. You have become what you were running away from. The void emptiness. It is then that you actually realise, you’re not happy, you are not full, YOU ARE EMPTY. “What am I looking for anyway?” you ask yourself. Unfortunately you cannot even perceive what you actually desire…  “Steve, let’s go for the lecture”, calls out a subtle voice from a distance. Suddenly you wake up from Dream Lake and it seems over for a moment, but you know it’ll be back, someday…